The Lost Kid

Many people travel to relax and getaway from the busy city life or to escape from their ever-so-demanding-job or to just simply find peace and harmony from their magulong isip. I started my journey in Baguio January this year. That was a week after my partner and I decided to part ways. It was insane. I didn't know what to do, where to go, or how to live a life with the routine I was already used to. My trip to Baguio was a disaster. My friend told me to go there as that was where my ex and I celebrated our first anniversary. "Pumunta ka sa Baguio kasi dun kayo nag anniversary," my friend told me. "Kumain ka kung san kayo kumain, puntahan mo yung sites na binisita nyo. Para pag naalala mo yung Baguio, sarili mo na ang maiisip mo. Hindi na sya." It was hell for me. I cried for three days while I was in Baguio. After coming home from that trip, nothing changed - in fact, it became worse. A week after my trip to Baguio, I decided to do a "Laguna loop" for...

  So I posted earlier that I want to go wanderlust-slash-soul-searching-kuno beginning next month but guess what? My libido for going out and about was on full swing a little after 2:00PM I decided to pack my things and just go. BOOM.   Deep in the forest and up in the mountains. That was what I had in mind. I have been living in Sta. Rosa, Laguna since forever. Part of me wants to go and live somewhere but part of me wants to stay. I don’t know about you guys but this dirty south has got almost everything I want. I live just a few kembots from Enchanted Kingdom, Paseo, Nuvali, Pansol, and bus/van terminals going to Alabang, Cubao, Tagaytay and Batangas. Streetfood stalls that serve deep fried isaw, the ever so popular kwek-kwek, fishballs and all-the-balls-you-can-imagine, and our pambato ng Sta.Rosa, proben, are just a stone throw away. (I’ll share some photos soon!)   Anyway, to keep this post short, I decided to go to Makiling to take a quick day hike to Peak 2 and ko...

Sabi nila, pag nagmahal ka daw, wag mong ibigay ang lahat. Magtira ka daw para sa sarili mo. Para pag nasaktan ka, may babalikan ka. Hindi mo na kailangan pumunta sa Baguio para gayahin si Mace ng That Thing Called Tadhana. Hindi mo na kailangan hanapin ang sarili mo. Hindi mo na kailangan mag soul searching kuno. Pano ba mag mahal ng hindi binibigay ang lahat? Ang hirap naman yata nun. Pano ba mag tira para sa sarili? Pano yung mga pangako na, “ibibigay ko ang lahat sayo,” or “lahat gagawin ko para sayo.” Ano yung mga yun? Mema? Memasabi lang? Sabi nila, pag nagmahal ka daw, wag mong ibigay ang lahat. Pano ba yun?

Ever felt the itch of going somewhere alone because of a bad break up? That’s exactly how I felt after watching # SakalingHindiMakarating (insert forever alone meme) in Festival Mall, Alabang. It triggerred the #wanderlust in me after seeing the beautiful places Cieo (Allesandra De Rosi, # SakalingHindiMakarating ) visited to find the mysterious person who has been sending her post cards from all over the places in the Philippines. I have always been in love with mother nature. I hate the stress city life gives me. Imagine traffic jam, air, noise and light pollution, crowded places and the shitty concrete jungle? That just fucks the hell out of me. I don’t know if it’s just me but I’d rather sleep in a tent, alone or with someone I love, have a few bots of beer, listen to the calming sound the waves make than stay in a five-star-not-worth-your-money-masabing-sosyal-fancy hotel. 7,107 islands. Fuckloads of long weekends. …but which place should I visit first? Help me make this wanderlus...

Mahirap ngumiti sa gitna ng sakit na nararamdaman…pero kaya. Kayang kaya. Siguro sa buhay, kailangan mo lang talaga masampal ng katotohanan para ka matauhan. Masakit na marinig mo sa isang tao na “ang unattractive mo na”, lalo na kung maririnig mo ‘to sa taong mahal mo. Tangina lang, no?  Pero isa rin pala ‘to sa mga bagay na makakapag-patibay sayo. Isa ito sa mga bagay na gigising sa diwa mo para magbago. Siguro huli na ang lahat. Siguro wala ng pag-asa. Siguro wala ng chance para maibalik ang nakaraan. Eh ano? Marami pa namang chances jan para sayo. Hindi mo mapapansin pero nanjan lang sila. Mas magandang chance pa ang dadating sayo. Yang sakit na nararamdaman ng puso mo? Normal yan. Tao ka, eh. May karapatan kang masaktan. Gamitin mo na lang yang “sakit” na yan para mas mapabuti mo ang sarili mo. Kahit hindi mo na ipakita sa ibang tao - ipakita mo na lang sayo na kayang kaya mo. Sabi nga nila, ang problema, dadaan at dadaan yan sa buhay ng tao. Daanan mo lang, wag mong istambaya...